09/19
2016

Not Good Enough

I couldn’t believe that it was over. It was so hard to believe that he was gone. Our relationship was over and he had already moved on.

Memories came flooding to me. I remembered every word he ever said to me. The thai massage Manchester that he scheduled for me to prepare me for yoga when we decided to be healthier. Every yoga class and cardio session was stuck in my brain. I couldn’t stop seeing myself trying to be good enough for him. No matter what I did, I was never good enough.

Then I remembered how he called me fat. How he said I would never be good enough for him. I realized that I would never be good enough for him. I had to move on for myself once and for all.